An Open Letter From A Son To His Mother After Moving Out For The First Time

Dear mother,

It has been over a month since I moved out of our home to pursue what I love, to a different city. Everything is new over here, and although the people here have been living here since a long time, it still feels like uncharted territory to me. Like the first day of school, when I had to explore what lay on the other side of those gates.

To be frank, mother, I did not know what to expect.

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Even though I had been gearing up for this job for a while, looking up and finalising every last detail, I have to be truthful to you that it all came as a shock. And every day when I encounter something new, I remember your words, “Learn. Constantly gain knowledge about what you don’t know. It will never go to waste.” It is being validated every day. Thank you, mother.

 

Even though I miss you, I refuse to accept it.

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It is a part of everyone’s psychologies, I guess. We refuse to accept and face what makes us weak and vulnerable. I miss you, yes. In everything. Up until now, I’ve lived with you my entire life and have memories with you in every single thing I do in the day. So yes, you’re remembered right from waking up in the morning to making my bed in the night. But I don’t accept it, because I want to be strong.

 

I remember everything you’ve taught me, every moment of the day.

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From making breakfast in the morning, to washing clothes in the evening, to changing my bedsheets, to buying house supplies, you’re remembered in every activity I do. For this, I cannot thank you enough. What you taught me as a child, for which I was constantly looking for ways to get out of, is now enjoyable when I do it alone and for myself.

 

You were the first person I thought of when I got my first paycheck.

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I owe my success in a large part to you and father. You, especially. You not only imparted in me how to conduct myself with other people, but you also taught me the qualities I should uphold to make a good name for myself as well as my family. And the first paycheck I received today made me realise how important all of these lessons are for a man when he starts earning.

 

I cannot wait to come home as much as you.

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No matter how much we fight and how much I tell you to leave me alone, the truth is that there is no place like home. Your presence makes the house a home, and I’d want to live in that feeling wherever you are, just to get over the feeling of longing. I can go with staying in another city for as long as I want, but I WILL want you for a detox every once in a while.

Yes, I am taking care of myself. Yes, I am having a good time here. Yes, I have made friends (somewhat). This is a new experience for me, and no matter how daunting or how amazing it may seem on random days, it is what I wanted and what I chose for myself, because I needed this experience to be truly independent and because I was curious to know what it is like to live alone and away from home.

 

With loads of love and immense amounts of respect,
Your loving son.

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