McKinsey Employee Leaves ₹1.7 Crore Salary Job Because His Mental Health Worsened, Shares Story

Recently, a 25-year-old man working as a Junior Associate at McKinsey & Company died by suicide and his death started a major conversation on mental health on social media. The guy in question, Saurabh Kumar Ladda, had the ideal CV and was an alumnus of IIT Madras and IIM Calcutta. However, it turns out that work pressure at McKinsey & Company got to him.

Another ex-employee of the company (who wished to remain anonymous) opened up about the maddening pressure he experienced at the company while working as an associate. Despite earning Rs 1.7 crore a year, he decided to quit his job for the sake of mental health, highlighting the idea that no amount of money is enough to wreck your mental health.

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“On a typical day, I worked from 7.30 am or 8 am until 11.30 pm. And it was pedal to the metal — I didn’t leave my desk, forgot to eat, and dropped tons of weight. I barely remembered to go to the bathroom. I only remembered to get up when I noticed my dog looking at me all sad,” said the ex-employee who had joined McKinsey in 2021.

He further revealed that there was a severe lack of apprenticeship, one had to learn everything on their own and start working by themselves from day one.

“One of the things I struggled with was the lack of apprenticeship. It’s supposed to be a really apprenticeship-heavy culture, but that wasn’t my experience. You’re expected to start working from day one. I was there to learn, but it was a frustrating experience because no one was there to teach me… I was alone on an island while my manager drowned in her other work. I felt like I wasn’t learning anything,” Moneycontrol quoted him saying.

On top of this, the senior employees would comment about how the new employees were not good enough as they didn’t receive apprenticeships.

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“The analysts and associates were all cool, but a few associate partners and partners were mean. They freaked out over mistakes and belittled people’s thought processes.”

He even revealed how there was one associate partner who screamed at him in front of the whole team because they thought he was going to miss a deadline. He ended up crying. Because of such high work pressure, he often found himself crying and taking anti-anxiety pills. He went on to take a 3-month-long mental health break but that didn’t work out as he expected it to.

“I was crying more and taking anxiety medication at a higher dosage than I had ever needed before joining. The week before I decided to leave, I was oscillating between being way too OK, and then crying, and then being way too stoic. During my break, I tried to pick up new hobbies and realised that I hated every hobby. I tried to get out of the house more but wasn’t really successful because of how down I was.”

At one point, his mother had to come down and take care of him and that’s when he decided that he needed to leave the job for his sake.

“I decided to officially leave because I realised if working here caused my mental health to deteriorate, why would I stay? Why would I want to be someplace that causes me to be in such a dark place?” he asked.

This is toxic work culture at its peak!

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