“I Wasn’t There On Your Last Day,” Sonu Sood Pens A Post For His Mom And It’s Painful To Read

The pain of losing a loved one never really leaves you.

You may learn to accept that they’re gone. But there are always those feelings of regret lurking in a corner of your heart: if only you could have just one more day with them… if only you could’ve told them how much you loved them….

Ten years ago, on October 13, 2007, actor Sonu Sood lost his mother. Today, on her 10th death anniversary, the actor has penned a hauntingly beautiful tribute to her.

The actor shared a sweet picture of himself with his mother on Instagram this morning, and the accompanying message is a heart-touching note to his Maa.

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13th Oct 2017… Dear Mom, it's been 10 years..TEN LONG YEARS since I last saw you. I never knew that 13th Oct 2007 will be the most ill fated date in my life. You were my pillar, my strength, my pride someone who knew everything. All that you said years back came true maa. I became an actor, someone who wanted to make his parents proud n I did that to an extent mom, I am still giving my hundred percent n I promise I won't give up , after all I'm the only son of PROF: Saroj Sood, Someone who taught the whole world how to live their dreams. My only regret in my life, that I will take to my grave will be that I was not around you on ur last day😭 I know u must have wanted me to be there but maa poor you, even u didn't know that we don't have time. And you never wanted to bother me also I know that but you should have maa.. u should have bothered me. I would have flown to you and would had never let you go.. Read it somewhere in your books only " Time is the best healer". It's not true maa.. not true at all. There has been not a single day that I didn't miss you. The scars of your loss are as fresh as they were 10 years ago. N will not change till my last breath. Maa just promise me that u will come as my mom in my every birth Bec now I will have to wait for my next birth to see you fast. God knows when the time will come when I will be able to hug u n cry aloud. 😭 Just take care of yourself wherever u are till I see you. Then I will take care of you. Miss u every second maa… love u ❤️

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The note is, in fact, a letter where the actor expresses his regret about not being with his mother on the day she breathed her last and how much he misses her every single day of his life.

13th Oct 2017… Dear Mom,
it’s been 10 years..TEN LONG YEARS since I last saw you. I never knew that 13th Oct 2007 will be the most ill fated date in my life. You were my pillar, my strength, my pride someone who knew everything. All that you said years back came true maa. I became an actor, someone who wanted to make his parents proud n I did that to an extent mom, I am still giving my hundred percent n I promise I won’t give up , after all I’m the only son of PROF: Saroj Sood, Someone who taught the whole world how to live their dreams.
My only regret in my life, that I will take to my grave will be that I was not around you on ur last day? I know u must have wanted me to be there but maa poor you, even u didn’t know that we don’t have time.
And you never wanted to bother me also I know that but you should have maa.. u should have bothered me. I would have flown to you and would had never let you go..
Read it somewhere in your books only ” Time is the best healer”. It’s not true maa.. not true at all. There has been not a single day that I didn’t miss you. The scars of your loss are as fresh as they were 10 years ago. N will not change till my last breath.
Maa just promise me that u will come as my mom in my every birth Bec now I will have to wait for my next birth to see you fast. God knows when the time will come when I will be able to hug u n cry aloud. ?
Just take care of yourself wherever u are till I see you. Then I will take care of you.
Miss u every second maa… love u ❤️

 

This letter probably has a greater significance than just a note of remembrance.

In an interview with Hindustan Times two years ago, Sonu had revealed that he and his mother would carry on a correspondence of letters after he had shifted to Mumbai from Punjab.

“I remember, at times, I would tell her to not write saying we could talk over the phone, but she would say she loved writing and that it was her gift to me. And now I know what she meant. After she passed away, these became valuable treasures. I still derive strength from these.”

Sonu was born in Moga, Punjab, but raised in Nagpur. His mother, Saroj Sood, was a professor, and  father, Shakti Sagar Sood, was an entrepreneur.

It was only last year in February that the actor had lost his father too. Earlier this year, he had shared a touching Instagram post about missing him too.

If you’ve ever lost a loved one, you will find each and every word of the letter to be painfully true.

People will tell you that time heals all wounds. But the truth is, that big empty whole that’s now in your heart becomes a part of you forever. Nothing can come remotely close to filling it.

All that we can do is honour their memory by making ourselves into someone that they can be proud of!

Dear Sonu, you’ve done exactly that! Your parents, wherever they are, would be proud of you!

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